Resolve

I have decided not to make any real resolutions this year. Usually, when I resolve to eat less, exercise more and be a better person, someone will piss me off on January 2nd, and I will sit on the couch and eat as many Krispy Kremes as I can to soothe the soul. Nope. This year, I am just going to pick up where I left off in 2009. I will keep trying to be a better wife, mother, friend, worker, and Christian. I will try not to get my feelings hurt when the ladies at work talk about me behind my back. I will try not to lost my patience with Luke when he says he "needs" M&M's for dinner after I have already told him no 100 times. I will try to understand that Brian truly believes that his way is the best way to handle any and all situations. I will continue to send birthday cards, anniversary cards, get well cards, and "just because" cards because they make people feel good. I will not worry about the decisions of others unless they directly affect me, my spouse or my son. I will not think about whether or not we will have another baby. I will not worry about our health, our finances, or if people really and truly like me. I will, however, still at least think about this last 10 pounds that I need to lose, but not as much as I thought about the last 10.
I will try not to worry as much and try to smile much more. I will try to make friends here and not complain as much about being lonely. I will try to find more opportunities to sing because that is one thing that makes me happy that I have complete control over. I will try to find a cure for the ringing in my ear. I will try to find a bathing suit to wear this summer. I will try to occasionally let the dishes sit in the sink overnight, the laundry sit in the dryer, and the floor go unmopped to get an extra hour of sleep, an extra hour of play in with Luke or an hour of any kind to myself. I will try to remember that people are watching and I should be careful what I say and do unless I want to have to explain myself. I will try to budget the grocery bill better. I will try and get Luke to actually use the potty. I will try to take the LSAT and get into law school, maybe.
I will try to see as many March Madness games as I can without getting fired. I will try not to make excuses for why I can't do something that I might not want to do. I will try to give things a chance. I will try...I will try...I will try...